20 July, Father turns One
To my Son
Nothing prepares you for fatherhood, not even your niece and nephews whose diapers you might have changed once in a blue moon. The feelings and emotions that crawl under your skin are as strange as visiting a country where they don't speak the language you know. Movies and television are too far off from reality. You don't feel responsible, or maybe you do, but you certainly are confused.
You are a father, because now you have a child? I wish I became a father before I had my first born. The feeling of unpreparedness made me feel like a tourist in my own home. I knew I should be responsible now, but in what way?
The first time I felt like a father was not when I held my son in my arms, not even when I tried opening his palms and he grabbed my finger. The first time was when he was crying helplessly and calmed down only when I picked him up. For the first time in my life I felt all powerful and vulnerable at the same time.
Being a father is an incredible new chapter in your life, you suddenly become an adult. Now you have new goals, a new vision and an unavoidable need to grow and mature with the selection of your life choices.
But that's just the father, there are many more new born relations that have come into being. And there is only one other person I feel who enjoys and beholds more of everything than the father, and we all know who it is.
May the almighty bless us all.
Amen
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